Going Forward

Posted on Sat Mar 14th, 2020 @ 11:17am by Lieutenant Commander Estella Stratton
Edited on Sat Mar 14th, 2020 @ 11:19am

**Begin Personal Log**

It is a bit strange, returning to the Washington. Things are not as they were before. Much has changed. Some life chapters have come to close with bitterness. Not the kind that leaves a bad taste in the mouth, but of a deeper, more intimate nature. Long lasting friendships were damaged, perhaps beyond repair, during the last mission.

I worry most for Sachzny. Perhaps this is on account of how little I truly understand her and the depth of her affection for Jon. Also her life as an Ojna. For a long time, she was the only one. Did she feel cut off from the only world she knew? Maybe even isolated? Or... shunned, even by us?

Jon too has not come out of this unchanged. He might not say it, but he hurts. It is visible in his eyes. Sometimes audible in his voice.

Then, some wounds take time to heal. But... sometimes, I cannot help but feel time is not enough. Or that perhaps some wounds simply don't. Rather you learn to live with them.

The latter, is what I believe to be true as we are all haunted by the re-precautions of our decisions.

I know I still live with mine... and would like to believe I'm a little wiser for it.

**End Personal Log**