Deception

Posted on Fri Nov 29th, 2024 @ 4:34pm by Lieutenant JG James Phoenix
Edited on Sat Dec 7th, 2024 @ 12:11am

"Personal log, Lieutenant Junior Grade James Phoenix.

It has been a while since I've done one of these things. I suppose that's one of the prices to pay for helping look for Captain Shran. Not the only cost as a result for this mission" he sighed and sat down on his couch.

"I lost her again. Ash. Or, to be more specific, her mirror universe counterpart who died in my arms on that mission. Hela brought her back. I was such an idiot to believe that Hela could reunite the real Ash with me. And because of that, the counterpart of my best friend is on the run with Captain Shran's counterpart because of my own damned selfish desires.

I'm fracking livid. I believed a Q like god. I trusted Hela like an blithering fool and I actually thought I had reunited with my best friend when there were signs that she was a Terran that are now clear to me. And worse of all, I put this ship at risk. I feel like I should be court martialed.

But weirdly enough, I don't feel worse than I did when she died in my arms. Perhaps I'm still in shock. Perhaps I've lost her so many damn times that it's become a normal occurrence. Maybe this is me living with my poor decisions. The crappy thing is if I want to find my actual best friend again, I'm back to square one. Hell, I'm at square one if I want to find her and Shran's mirror counterpart" he sighed again and stood up, taking his non-synthehol vodka in his hand.

"I think this is me living with it. I'll find her again. The real her" he said.

"I will live with this" he said before chuckling slightly. "I think I'm starting to sound like Captain Sisko."

He paced around silently for a bit more, before approaching his window. "Computer, delete entire log."